Should Have

8/02

I called Elise last night.  She didn't answer.  I am not sure why I even called her.  I think I just want to understand.  Maybe she was just in a mood.  Maybe this is just a temporary thing.

I should have listened to her more.  I should have said something to her that night.  I know I'm not perfect.  We just need to talk.  That's all.  We can work things out.

I miss the little things:  her daily call at work, the way she would roll her eyes at me when I cracked a stupid joke, just everything you never pay attention to until it stops.

God, I am sitting at home on a Saturday night thinking she might call me back.  How pathetic is that?